Turkey Bacon

Doesn't taste like bacon. It doesn't taste like turkey. It tastes a little bit like dried out fake pastrami. I don't get the attraction. Seriously people.

Ouchies!

Tried some more Pilates today. Didn't do much but after 10 minutes my abdominal muscles are sore as anything. So now I'm saying to myself "No, that doesn't mean that you shouldn't do it. It means you have to keep doing it."

And Pilates

Well not really Pilates. Pre-pilates. But I put a DVD into the machine and tried to do it. (I've had these DVDs for two years but never put them in a machine.) And I hated hated hated it. After ten minutes I took it out.

Then the victory. I put the other one in. No, I didn't get pissed off. I didn't decide that Pilates is doomed or filled with bad karma. I put the other one in the damn machine. Now I admit that I wasn't feeling too hopeful. And that woman on the first one put me off like crazy. But the second one, Pilates for Inflexible People, had a nice menu and a lovely woman -- named Maggie -- who didn't piss me off. I did "pre-pilates," breathing, slow awareness of the core, and some yoga-like exercises for 15 minutes. Amazing really.

I even got the notion that I ought to rearrange my space so I have room to completely roll out a yoga mat and be able to move without breaking any body part. Most of me is ashamed that I am in such bad shape, that 15 minutes was so hard, and that I didn't do more. But a tiny part says "Yay me!" I'm trying to remember what Jenette told me while reading her archives about having compassion for my younger self. (She thought she was telling herself, but she was really telling me.)

So I have another growth opportunity -- being compassionate to my younger self. And being compassionate toward my present self. This year is just filled with them so far.
Thank you Jennette.

And Pilates

Well not really Pilates. Pre-pilates. But I put a DVD into the machine and tried to do it. (I've had these DVDs for two years but never put them in a machine.) And I hated hated hated it. After ten minutes I took it out.

Then the victory. I put the other one in. No, I didn't get pissed off. I didn't decide that

Journaling

I got a fabulous incredible Moleskine Journal in red leather today. Perfect perfect for weight/food/fitness only. I hope by writing things down I can learn a little. I don't mean just weight but feelings, weather, health, and the like. I hope I'll be able to teach myself what works with some consistency and what doesn't. I also hope by just investing some time in thinking about it daily I might increase my probability for success.

That all sounds so negative but I'm not feeling negative. I'm feeling like "I can do this." and I'm really trying to maximize the time and energy investment. And overcome the inertia as much as possible.

Small Victory

I was out running around and fell into Five Guys, a local fabulous burger joint. I got a child's cheeseburger and small fries, to go. When I got my food home I realized that they had given me a regular cheeseburger. Oh well, sez I. I ate half of it AND THREW THE REST AWAY!!! Yes, I know children are starving in wherever it is today. I mooshed it up and wrapped the moosh in foil and pitched it.

Good for me. An obstacle moves a tiny bit and I am closer to where I want to be.